Friday, April 24, 2009
A Lake Is Not An Ocean.
We all jumped off the docks, tied together, shivering slightly into milky waters that glowed and threatened us with wilted water flowers flowing, blowing their tongues into our crevices and kissing us so deep we wanted to drown; grow gowns of childhood rapture, weaving tattered memories into glamorous reminiscence.
We float about among them, trying to drift in an ocean much too large for us but too small to take us where we wanted to go, into the gardens of the universe where all our thoughts are cultivated and grown into roses stretching their chlorophyllic skins up the lattice of the world; we’re longing to be intertwined and entangle done more time.
Instead, our bodies morph away, loosening our skins until they call us shape shifters; the bones of our ill innocence are eroding, joining the rocks at the bottom of these waters, sprawling what’s left of us into the places our pasts will never find, won’t discover while we’re making new friends, and better—new lovers.
When we were younger we thought in imaginary fixations, where our lives were locked and tethered to each other, twice woven like patterns in my wallpaper; they all faded as we aged, all our pages ripped out and torn into the simplest of words.
It’s all emotion and still-life, no dialogue to recall, no silent films played with background laughs and soda spills; only photographs of people we can’t possibly remember, it’s been so long since we’ve seen them, love them, been them… No, they’re just portraits of what once was, won’t be.
So I only let myself remember the feeling of falling into the ocean; there aren’t any more faces or hands laced up, just lungs breathing fish and salt water, holding themselves tightly to the rest of my organs until I’m so far from being a person that I cup my love close to my mouth, pouring into the corpse of a stranger until things don’t seem so strange anymore.
We left each other alone and wanting things we couldn’t give because we knew too much and much too little to make the difference we were looking for, but we made it in alive, and as far as I know you’re still breathing, still feeling through the numb.
We shine separate, swimming into one future.
I LOVE YOU 8:02 AM
♥ desires for my birthday and thenon
Kevin Max's Raven Songs album
A USB Yamaha digital recording piano keyboard
Rock Band for Wii
My silver star necklace
My gold star necklace
My jiggly Giraffe silver necklace
The Sanyo Xacti HD underwater digital camcorder (lime green!) when it comes to the USA
The complete Powerpuff Girl's season collection
Freaks & Geeks season collection
Foster's Home Of Imaginary Friends season collection
Real Madrid European football paraphernalia
Broncos American football paraphernalia
A Lara Croft Halloween costume
TWLOHA Deon sweater
A Purpose For Pain TWLOHA book
A USB SD camera card reader
A pineapple mug to drink liquids in
Pineapple antics in general
Giraffe antics in general
Tim Hawkins stand up comedies
A teal colored automobile to drive, that's better than URN