Thursday, March 19, 2009
Taped Together.
Scratched up plastic tape is holding together boxes that never should have been opened in rooms that I never wanted to be unlocked.
The ink on the cardboard dried a lifetime ago in a year I barely remember, except for the hollow, dead grating of autumn leaves skittering across empty concrete sidewalks.
I only remember the sound, even, because it reminded me of the very last, wrenching moments spent by your side; when I ran weeping from the room I looked around, thinking that maybe they were wrong and you hadn’t left me yet.
But the leaves continued their sluggish death rattle beneath my feet, and you continued your choking silence that only nightmares can do justice; I can only remember how brushing death felt when I’m not at all sure that I’m still alive.
I realized that I was only lying to myself, so I put all of your things away, out of sight but never out of mind, in taped up boxes behind locked doors that I passed by but never looked at, until the tape began to crack.
I could hear the groaning as my makeshift skyscrapers shifted, and I was afraid that if they fell, you wouldn’t be able to get to heaven.
I patched up the torn parts and braced for an impact that I only imagined, but when I looked at what I had done, the tears came back in all their blindness.
Scratched up plastic tape is holding my heart together.
I LOVE YOU 9:58 PM
♥ desires for my birthday and thenon
Kevin Max's Raven Songs album
A USB Yamaha digital recording piano keyboard
Rock Band for Wii
My silver star necklace
My gold star necklace
My jiggly Giraffe silver necklace
The Sanyo Xacti HD underwater digital camcorder (lime green!) when it comes to the USA
The complete Powerpuff Girl's season collection
Freaks & Geeks season collection
Foster's Home Of Imaginary Friends season collection
Real Madrid European football paraphernalia
Broncos American football paraphernalia
A Lara Croft Halloween costume
TWLOHA Deon sweater
A Purpose For Pain TWLOHA book
A USB SD camera card reader
A pineapple mug to drink liquids in
Pineapple antics in general
Giraffe antics in general
Tim Hawkins stand up comedies
A teal colored automobile to drive, that's better than URN